Friday, 13 May 2011

The meaning of life

yep, that big question..

I believe in the before and after life. That there is this higher form of life where our souls live, but for some reason (a lesson we want to learn), we materialize as humans (or ants or zebras or grass or trees..). In that after/before life place, we "decide" how/why/who we will connect on this life, like friends, a teacher and a pupil, friends, etc. Throughout my pregnancy, I completely had this sensation that Butterfly is a very old soul, not a newbie. I remember feeling how weird as obviously this is a baby and I should feel like she is new into the world. Now of course it could be my beliefs that made me feel that way, I don't know. I just know that that's how I felt. And I do believe that she is here to teach me a lesson and to learn one herself (as any other person).

On a side note, not sure yet how or if relevant but feel like I should mention.. ever since her birth, I feel much much older than just before, and I am very scared of dying. It's going to happen! I will die one day. And oh my! I just hope my little girl won't be so little.
And there was this programme I saw once ( I believe a BBC production) where they showed that all these near death experiences that we hear of, where people nearly die but haven't and came back to tell about it, with meeting with those who have already passed and the purple tunnel and the bright light and all, all those had some kind of scientific explanation. And I took that quite hard. [but now writing, they only proved that there may be scientific proof to the above phenomena, still doesn't mean that near death experiences aren't real..].

So, the other day I read this article. It talked about the big bang and the end of the universe, blah blah. And then it talked about how when the universe will end, it will end. There will be no other big bang to restart the stars and all. Just a big nothing (and even the black holes will die out). Now I thought the theory was that the universe is expanding and then will collapse and then expand again, etc. Or that if it will one day die, then there will be again a big bang etc. Not that the universe will one day die and that will be it.
And yes, that will happen so far into the future, that planet Earth will probably not even be a memory, and nobody will know there ever was a Billy and a Butterfly. But if the universe is to die one day, then all my nice belief about the life before and after death, well not really possible. So if so, if we are not put here to learn a lesson, what is the meaning of life?? Is life really just a coincidence where the right organs and chemicals and all met? Are we just randomness or is there something more than that to life?
Yeah, the big question. That's what's on my mind these days. So on to you, my one and a half reader - What is your intake on the meaning of life, or do you think there's no meaning?
(P.S - scheduling this to be published sometime in the near future)

13 comments:

tireegal68 said...

The whole big bang scares me so much. that with no warning we will be here one minute and gone the next. Some say the world is ending May 21st. It all scares me now. I want to be here with my honey and Isobel for a lot longer!

Kristina said...

This blog post is not exactly connected but very related, http://blog.optimalhealthnetwork.com/2011/04/what-is-optimal-health.html

Tippy said...

thanks for stopping by my blog. happy ICLW to you to. and that's a VERY deep question! i'm a scientist by nature, but was raised catholic, even though i don't practice now. i tend to believe we are mostly just randomness, but there is some stronger life force, higher consciousness that keeps us all connected. in the end, though, nothing matters other than being a good human in this existence and enjoying the time we have this consciousness. that's my opinion :-)

Tippy (#8)

Fran said...

Lovely post, very deep too. Thank you for stopping by my blog and a big virtual hug in return.
Fran

ICLW #10

SurlyGirl said...

We have very similiar beliefs about chosing to be here and the before and after life. Whenever I get frustrated with things in my life my yoga instructor reminds me that I chose this life for a reason. I do believe in infinity. There may be a big bang that ends the universe, but only so that it can recreate itself again and we will be a part of that somehow.

Jes G said...

stopping by from iclw.....
your daughter is beautiful!

my meaning of life...... happiness. in whatever form i can get it.

New Year Mum said...

Hi.. there is certainly meaning to life and I can't imagine there just being nothing. There must be something beyond us and we can't just be random collection of cells... gorgeous post. Thank you for sharing your thought xoxo

A Shadow of My Former Self said...

Hi! Thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving such a nice comment! Your blog was one of the first ones I came across when I was in the "thinking" mode. Your story is very inspirational! As for the meaning of life...I wish I knew. Sometimes I think there is a deep significant and interlocking relationship between all creatures and therefore there must be some meaning. Other times? Well, not so much. I don't feel too confident either way any more. I sometimes wonder if that would change if I didn't live in this day and age. We're just exposed to too darn much!

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Lavender Luz said...

Your beliefs are similar to mine. And now you've really made me think!

I'm glad to still be here, hours after the rapture was supposed to take place :-).

I once wrote down my thoughts on this issue here: http://writemindopenheart.com/2007/10/the-meaning-of-life-according-to-me-2.html

Thanks for posing this issue!

bean dreams said...

Love this deep question. For some odd reason, I've been feeling I need to sort out all of my thoughts to raise my someday baby with. Still working on that...
hmmm.....
Just finding your blog through ICLW. It is wonderful that you have found motherhood after struggling. I would love to hear about your daughter! Celebrate it!!!

awomanmyage said...

ICLW

I'm not really worried about what ocmes later, I'm more of a believer in making the best of the life you have now - it's all about creating value and making good causes.

Nikki said...

ICLW -

I thought this was a beautiful and thoughtful post and I really enjoyed reading it. Thank you for that.

Nikki