A while back, in one of the film shows my father sometimes has*, I saw this picture and it kind of hit me. In recent years my father has made a lot of effort to amend his wrong doing of the past, and today he is a great dad, but growing up was a different story. Back then he was really awful and nasty to me. Anyway this picture made me realize that sometime before that, before all the bad that was between us, he was a newly father to this little baby who was just born. And one can see how proud and happy he was. It was such a wow for me.
I was born with a big mass of black hair. My mother used to tell me how people thought I was wearing a wig (something that really puzzles me - why would
anyone think that a baby is wearing a wig, however abnormal her mass of hair is!?), and I always translated it to - what an ugly baby I was, with all that hair. And then not so long ago (actually in the same film show as above, it was a very revealing one!), looking at baby pictures of myself, sister #1 commented and said - "You were such a beautiful baby" (she's seven years older than me). That took me completely by surprise!
First of September, first day of school here. The excitement of going back to school :). Not sure what year this pic was taken, but my guess would be 1979, when sister #6 joined us in the joys of homeworks and tests and teachers summing parents and all that fun ;-). Note how neat and tidy we are. We would look like that probably until the end of the week. LOL. Now let me introduce you to the gang - Behind are brother; sis #3; sis #1. In the front are sis #5; me; sis #6.
I would put my money that this photo was taken on first day of scouts, maybe even on first day ever going to scouts. See how I am so neat, with my shirt tucked in nicely and my hair all good. That, and the lack of a scout's tie.. But I love seeing what a cute little girl I was :-).
Probably 18 here. Boy, would I love to be in that body again :-).
And finally, this picture was taken a year ago, just after I had my hair cut (I am now trying to grow it long). I so love it. I usually don't like pictures of myself, but this one.. I immediately turned it into wallpaper on my computer (up till then, I had Microsoft's clouds as background, never feeling fit to put something of myself). So yes, I am waiting the day when my little one will adorn my computer, but until them I love being able to look at myself and feel good about it!
And not a picture, but about two months ago I did something for the first time! I heard the song I was named after. I won't reveal here my real name, so I won't say what song it was, but wow, it was so soft and tender. And the love.. so full of love. My mother, all these years, quoted me the chorus, and there is love there, but somehow it was so different when I actually heard the song. It was so sweet, and so lovely to know that my name was conceived in love!!
* My father loves photography and took many pictures when we grew up (hmmm... still does till this day..). Many of the pictures he took back then, he had developed as slides, so here and there (nowadays) he has (more so - tries to have..) slide shows in which he shows us these pictures.