Saturday, 25 October 2008

second thoughts

Starting to think - maybe I was too quick to start with meds. I wanted to have 6 unmedicated efforts, and only then (if I don't succeed) turn to using drugs. This is going to be my 5th attempt, and I'm already onto hormones. Isn't it too soon??
Because I am generally a very v-e-r-y healthy person (never took antibiotics, and last time I was ill, with the flu, was over 20 years ago). I do not like taking drugs (I don't take painkillers. I prefer having a nice cup of tea and lying down, with my recent discovery being that doing so with loud music on actually helps with headaches!). So yes, I am taking folic acid and prenatal vitamins (which I was highly recommend to start taking before pregnancy), but that's about it. And now I started pouring hormones into my body. It's probably a low dosage, not very much, but still.. Maybe I will need help conceiving, maybe my body is too old and needs assistance, but maybe I am just going too fast?
I admit the HSG did somewhat alarm me, and my age (38) is not calming me down, and the FSH which I was sure that by now would be quite high [about a year ago when I first started with procedures, it was six something. Not too bad, still in the "safe" zone of under 10, but still I did expect it to be lower. And I was sure that by now it would show a higher number, because lets face it, I'm not getting any younger]. And now getting my test results back (FSH is three something!), and well I am approaching 40 (the magical year in which, at least in my mind, fertility starts declining) but still am not yet there, and as I mentioned, I am healthy. I don't think I will be able to say next month (if I'm not successful) no to hormones once I've started, and I will probably be on a somewhat higher dosage, but right now I am having second thoughts whether it was wise to start on hormones.

2 comments:

bleu said...

It's a hard question. I began ttc at 34. I would never had done anything but ttc at home on my own back then. I did home insemination's by myself or with friends help. I got pregnant twice that way, once being Bliss. When I began trying again I was 38. I also tried at home and after 6 tries went to clomid. Things were different though and I knew it. After 11 tries I ended up trying injectables and after 15 tries I moved to IVF.

But for me the age thing and the Hashimoto's thing made a difference, but that isn't the same for everyone.

But in my mind the problem is, at 38 are you willing to gamble if you are one of those who would need help or one who wouldn't??

To me that is the hard decision and one that many would not want to chance.

I wish you peace in your decisions.

Naomi said...

I'm a big believer in trusting your gut. If that voice in your head is saying don't do it, then maybe you shouldn't. On the same note, if you think a few months from now, you're going to regret not starting them now, then you should take them.

Maybe it's a matter of which voice is louder...or maybe it's just me hearing voices...sorry that wasn't so helpful.

Good luck with whatever you decide to do.