Wednesday, 1 September 2010

leaving my kid with a stranger

So today's our first day. Didn't work today so nanny can be just two hours with her (same tomorrow) so girl can slowly get used to her.

I think mummy needs more getting used to leaving girl with a complete stranger. I went to my sister's (neighbour) and came back to see the nanny sitting on the sofa and baby on a mat on the floor, and well nanny was fiddling with her phone. Now I can understand sitting on the sofa (though I can tell you that I would [and had] sit on the floor/mat, being at the same level as the kid). But the phone?
And yes, I might have just walked into a situation [like maybe she was texing her son, a 10 year old], and I shouldn't expect anyone (including myself!) to be 100 percent all the time fussing around the girl, and I do believe [hope!] I have made the right choice choosing her, and probably it is just not easy "giving" her to an unknown person, but I just felt like screaming - leave my girl alone! get the hell out of here and never come back!

Oh and not so related - I sometimes feel this randomness, how any other child could have been born to me, but random made this certain girl be the one. And it was No Yolk's update (and what a wonderful update!!) that got me thinking about all these bloggworld babies and how I could have been a mother to any one of them and how different that would have been. Then I tried thinking the reverse, that is, my child could have had any of you bloggers as a mother, and I was - no way! she is mine! lol.

5 comments:

battynurse said...

I hope things get easier soon with leaving your girl with the nanny. I can imagine it is hard to do.

Tiara said...

I can only imagine how hard it is to leave your girl with a stranger! Just remember that good gut feeling you had about her when you hired her...

Paige said...

I hope the nanny gets with the program and that you all get more comfortable. September and nannys already. I remember when you were struggling to find her....Now she's your's ALL your's.

FruitFish said...

Well it is your heart out there, being taken care of by someone else and that must be terribly hard. Hopefully the next day goes better for you, the girl and the nanny!

Shannon said...

Oh, this makes my heart hurt, and my baby is still just a little bitty nugget. I hope you start to adjust and feel better about the nanny.