Thursday, 5 June 2008

And then we wait...

The two week wait.. The first part, which anyhow is the easier part, will probably fly by with my aunt being here for my mother's birthday and my dad's dog coming home from rehabilitation. But the week after.. And the annoying thing is the uncertainty of when I should test to see if I'm pregnant. They say that after two weeks, if I haven't got my period, then I should come and have a Beta test (I don't have any pregnancy tests at home, and prefer not having/doing them). My problem is that although my cycle is a bit longer than average (used to be 31 days, went down to about 29. Last cycle was 26 days! Must be my shortest..), I (probably, not completely sure yet) ovulate a bit earlier than normal, at around day 12 or 13. So... I most probably won't be getting my period in two weeks time, more two and a half weeks. Now the question is - do I do the test in 2 weeks even so I am still not supposed to get my period, or do I wait a bit longer and then be highly disappointed if it turns out negative? Last time I waited beyond those two weeks. In fact I waited until I got my period (I think I said that if I won't get it until such and such a date I'll go and do the test, and I probably got it at the very last moment [although I already had a feeling it wasn't going to be]).

And the good news - this time I managed to stay on the chair after the insemination for a whole 9 minutes! I was going to wait 10 minutes, but then I heard noises of someone trying to open a door and started to panic (There was a dialogue between panicked me and logical me. Logical me explained that what I heard was from the doctors office which is the room next to where I was sitting. Most of the wait I could hear mumbles and then it was quiet and then the door noises, so probably someone's conference with the doctor was over. That was logical me who manged to keep panicked me for another minute or so, but eventually panicked me said that enough is enough and quickly put her on clothes and dashed out..). Anyway I felt much less embarrassed this time lying there with my feet up..

4 comments:

Michal said...

I cross my fingers that there won't be a "next time" anytime soon :-)

But if there is, I really don't see why you can't take a blanket (so you don't care if someone walks in) and a book (so you're not bored) with you, to make sure you give your "babies" the best care, by comfortably lying there for 20 minutes.

Billy said...

:-)
As I said, I was much less embarassed..
I had a long T-shirt, and the nurse gave me some paper sheet (or whatever it is called). I can't say I wasn't frightend someone might come in and see me, but I think it was more me being there and taking too much of the "room's time" and feeling that I am expected to have already gone. I am not saying that I was expected to leave the sooner the better, just that I.....

P.S - I really don't have a good feeling it worked this time. I know it doesn't really mean anything, but still.. better luck next time!

Michal said...

This is such a difficult period...
You don't have a good feeling about it, that's a disappointment. Or it's your mind's way of preparing you to a disappointment. But then, you can't help thinking "that's not a sign" or even "when I felt good, it didn't work, so if I don't feel it worked, it probably did!". Two weeks is a long time for the mind to work back and forth and try to find signs. So if it doesn't work, you're bound to be disappointed even if you "knew" it didn't work from the start.
It's good that you are in therapy, at least you have where to deal with this objective difficulty.
Still crossing my fingers for this time :-).

Billy said...

Wow! Exactly!