four. Out of ten eggs less than half fertilized. Wasn't sure if 10 was good or bad or what, but out of the ten only four to fertilize???? And I know I only need one nice embryo to implant and I was really trying not to have high expectations, but 4?? [which also happens to be my unlucky number]
I'll go in on Tue and have the transfere and all, but if out of 20 follicles (well actually the last day I went for a sono there were 16, but that jumped from 12 on the previous day, so I think I can assume I had 20) I got only 10 eggs, and out of the 10 eggs only 4 were fertilized, what are the odds that they will implant, what are the odds that I'll see a pregnancy here!?
Oh, and you want to know what weird horrifying dream I had last night? Not for the faint of heart, please go away if you are such a person because it really is bad. So, in this dream I had last night, I wanted to eat a cat so I went about killing a cat, except it didn't really die, was just laying there helpless, looking at me. That didn't stop me putting cat into grill. Cat came out of grill scorched on one side (the side it lay on), but was still completely alive, albeit very weak and not able to move, only look at me with it's eyes, hoping for some mercy that wasn't to be. I don't think a wicked and twisted mind that can come up with such a dream will be a mother, not in this round.