Saturday, 26 September 2009

My Womb and odds and ends.. UPDATED

First thank you all!
I just can't believe it. Going back and forth between looking at my Beta number on the site and staring at the pee stick, mumbling to myself - "I am pregnant".
And I'm going between - Wow! I'm pregnant. I have a baby growing in me. I'm going to be a mother; to - What have I done! I'm pregnant. I have a baby growing in me. I'm going to be a mother. Yes, I am very scared of this new journey ahead of me.

That night I couldn't sleep, and was so exhausted the next day. Happens that sister was here (at my mum's) with her kids who woke up from nap screaming. Sister was dealing with big girl, and I was handed baby boy. Hmmmm... a screaming baby who I could not calm down* while I myself was exhausted being my first encounter with a baby since I got the positive.. nice "first" glance into motherhood... LOL.

Regarding a second beta, found out IVF place will be open tomorrow morning! It's bit of a nuisance as I didn't want to wake up early on Sunday, but hey! I'm not waiting to Tuesday for the second Beta to see that everything is o.k. I just hope results will be in before Y.K.

And yes, title promised something about my womb. I wanted to show you this picture

(Drawn by Yaeli Ziv for the Beit Issie Shapiro.)

On the day of the retrieval, sister #5 helped me out with the tank (getting it from IVF place, then going to bank and back to IVF place). As it also was the day of retrieval (I thought it would be a little later in the week), she was also there with me for the procedure. And sister #5, she is such a pampering gal! Anyway, while telling me not to look, she wrote me this card with above picture. One look at that picture, and I knew it is exactly how my womb looks like! And afterwards with my two embies transferred.. I really don't know if I have one or two inside, and I kept saying to them that it doesn't matter if only one of them sticks around, but these are my pre-born children playing in nature in my womb :-).


* I do take into account that he is not my child. It is not me he is used to, and not me he wants, especially for comfort, add to that not knowing his needs (was he hungry, tired, just furious, a radar of his screaming sister, etc).

1 9 4 7 !!

12 comments:

mekate said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!

oh this is such great news to find-- I am so so so happy for you!

wonderful wonderful wonderful--
xo
Kate

battynurse said...

I love that card. It's so cute. And the meaning behind it. I hope you get the next beta done and results back quickly.
And yes, I think we all have those worries, like how am I going to do this. I used to freak out when I worked NICU and had a baby that cried all night. But there were and are so many other factors involved. You will be great.

Wishing 4 One said...

oh.my.god!!! Billy!!!! yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah!!!! xxooxxooxxoo

Jess said...

That's a great way to look at your womb! that card is so cute and you very well could have two in there with your first beta number as high as it was. I'm hoping you get an awesome second beta number!!! :)

dreamsofquiet said...

I love the way you are looking at that card.

I really hope you get your results before YK (and talk to your doctor about fasting--i.e. not fasting).

Carrying a bit of happiness around for you.

Pundelina said...

Congratulations Billy!!! That picture is so sweet, what a lovely place to grow.

tireegal68 said...

How did I miss this news? Oh wow how exciting!!!!! One minute you had cramps and the next you are BFP!!!!! Yeah! And word verification is "peadom" which to me spells baby!

Miss X said...

still so excitd for you!

Genkicat said...

Congratulations! I am so happy to hear your good news. You will be an excellent Mom. I can't wait to hear more. When will you have an ultrasound?

Dora said...

WONDERFUL!! No fasting for you, miss!

Wishing 4 One said...

Just came back to see if you posted, still saying OMG and YEAH here in Cairo Billy! Woooooooooooooooh

cmay said...

OMGOOODNESS! I was behind on blog reading and stumbled on your fantastic news! I've got goose bumps for you, over here in California.
How wonderful!!!