Friday, 18 September 2009

Sitting Arrangements

(a rant)

Every time it happens and every time I get upset by it. Many times previously I tried picking a seat before. This time I thought I'd go with the flow, let them be seated and only then find a seat. But then sister tried to arrange who sits where, and again.. These are a couple and they just have to sit together (even though they see each other every day.. I really don't get what's the big deal, why is it so holy that they sit together), and then that's a mother with a little child, and she just has to sit near her baby and that has to be over there. I know it makes sense and all, but it kind of feels that since I am single and childless, that I can be shoved anywhere, and that I have to compromise because I am of less importance. I'm sorry if this may sound stupid. I know it is, but it gets to me every time.

Anyway just a rant, during my usual break I have to take in these family things. Back to desert (cheese cake!).


P.S
I'm sure this mild period "pain" I have, not really cramps, just a very mild feeling of a due period, and all the thoughts of is it it or is it just another period on its way. I mean it can't be a period, can it? I am on support, so I shouldn't be getting a period, right? But then it can't be a pregnancy sign, don't know but it really doesn't feel so. And the boobs. Long lost that feeling of sensitivity I had the other day [well it was after an HSG injection + progesterone supplement + estrogen. kind of no wonder..], but still not completely "regular", but then again progesterone does have that effect, so it really means nothing. And maybe I should test, oh I just want to test, can't I just have a test?? (had an HSG shot last Monday, so no, I probably can't test, unless I want to see a false positive..). Anyway, this all is probably making me extra emotional..





And S h a n a T o v a :-)

9 comments:

Jackie said...

Stay strong and hang in there :) Happy New Year!!

meandbaby said...

I totally get the seating chart thing!! Totally! I try to prep myself before such events and laugh it off. It's tough though.

And those cramps? Could be a very good thing! I've read about lots of women who had cramping, thought they were getting AF but were in fact pregnant!

Fingers crossed!!

Lollipop Goldstein said...

My family and I call that "sitting in Soho" which came from a Bat Mitzvah where the single, childless cousins were seated at the kids table instead of at an adult table. The ones my age. As in, I was at one table and they were at another. People need to realize how their rational actions make other people emotionally feel.

Becoming Whole said...

Try to remember to breathe...I know it's hard.

Shana tova again!

battynurse said...

I like Lollipop's comment. Sorry about the seating arrangements. It sounds frustrating. Hoping for you. I know the cramping can go either way. It could be a very good sign. Good luck.

Tanya said...

I TOTALLY felt like I was getting my period when I was pregnant with the boy. I had cramps for a week before AF was due... hoping this is a good sign for you.

Genkicat said...

I also felt exactly like I was getting my period. So sure that is what it was I didn't test until the night before my blood test (16 dpo). My fingers are crossed.

Jess said...

I really hope it's implantation your feeling!!! when can you test?

mekate said...

hoping for you! cramping can be good! I sincerely hope yours is a very good sign.

keeping my fingers crossed,
Kate