Wednesday, 16 July 2008

midway

Well actually yesterday was..
The first week is/was alright, but now in the second week I am climbing up walls waiting for an answer.
I am not waiting for a positive answer, since I'm completely sure I'm not, just want that period of mine to come so I'll have a seal on the not being pregnant. But on the other hand, I would prefer not getting a period before Sunday, because that would mean a quite short luteal stage which as I understand isn't too good.
I believe I'm not because my body totally doesn't feel pregnant; and because that as of this morning, my temperature started to drop [the one thing I kind of ignored last round because I was sure it was a mistake..]; and because it would be too good to be true after that almost completely painless insemination; and because it would be way too good to be true to be pregnant almost to the same week with my sister (whose 5 weeks pregnant). So I am not. I know that part of all this is to lessen the downfall after a negative answer, but the sad thing is that no matter how I convince myself that I'm not, I will still be very much disappointed when those drops of blood arrive. I am working on myself, showing me that it can't be, for sure it's not to be this time, but then (in the last two days) I have dreams in which I am (or more discover that I am).
I wish these next few days would just fly by..

3 comments:

Michal said...

Seems like at the time of insemination (be courageous enough to go for the second one) you forget how difficult it is to wait, and decide the pain/discomfort is not worth it at the time.
Shouldn't you make sure to have more than one insemination a month? There was some discussion in one of the forums, about hormones vs. several inseminations, but no hormones and only one insemination is really a way to torture yourself... :-(

Tanya said...

I'd never heard of multiple inseminations/month before I had my son. I thought everyone had only one. It does work without two if the timing is right.

Michal said...

Exactly... if the timing is right.
I think the forum discussion listed three options:
1. follow LH every day to make sure you pinpoint ovulation
2. take an Ovitral shot to ensure ovulation
3. or make 2-3 inseminations so if one missed ovulation, another will be there to meet the egg...

Sure, having just one insemination without following LH stands a chance, but the chances are much slimmer, and so there may be more of these torturing two-weeks waits.