Saturday, 13 December 2008

No, not this time.

The temps. such a tale tellers.
On Thurs morning it was low, but I was hoping it was a fluke. Then the next night I couldn't sleep, just tossed and turned, so I couldn't really check my temp, but whenever I shoved the thermometer into my mouth (yes, I can become quite obsessive about it..), the numbers seemed to be low. The plan was to wait till morning (or should I say - sleep), wake up, see a nice high temp, do a HPT and see two dark lines. Well, at some point I decided that if I can't do the temp, at least I can do a HPT. I did, and the second line (if indeed there was a second line) came out much fainter. That is not the direction I was hoping for, but I persuaded myself that it's only because it's a different brand.
And last night I began having these cramps. The "weird" thing all along was not having any symptoms at all. I did have mild period pains at first, but then even that stopped. And then last night. On one hand I was hoping that maybe, on the other hand...

Well this morning I woke up to another low temp. And then I got my period. So I guess it was a chemical pregnancy, but as they say - at least now I know that my body can become pregnant. And I do have a new bank, with a donor I am pleased with (hope he is still available..).
Oh, and the pain, yes, that is a bitch! Maybe I was lucky all these years, but wow, these cramps are something..

And I wonder if I should go in tomorrow morning for a beta. Since I got my period, I really don't see it necessary. I would really rather not wake up so early etc etc if I don't have to go, and just make an appointment for a Dr.

13 comments:

Seed Monkey said...

I am really upset for you Billy :(

Hopefully the new year will bring some better news.

Michal said...

Oi :-/.

At least, indeed, you have the new bank and donor.
I guess you can skip the test if you don't want to wake up so early, if you are pregnant and the bleeding is not a period, you'll find out soon enough... (BTW, do you really have to get up so early for a blood test? as far as I know beta tests don't require a doctor's note and labs usually receive patients as late as 10:00 (or is that what you mean by early?).

Billy said...

Around 6:00 (which is when I anyway wake up to temp, but usually go back to sleep for a couple of hours).
I test in the clinic which is about an hour's ride and they're open 7:00-8:30.

Oh, and our local lab is only open till 9:00..

Jo said...

Oh, not what we wanted to hear! I'm sorry to hear this wasn't the month for you. :(

bleu said...

damn I am sorry Billy

Jess said...

So sorry to hear this!

Tanya said...

Crud! I'm so sorry to hear that.

meandbaby said...

I'm so sorry Billy. :( My thoughts are with you.

princessoftides said...

Oh, crap. So sorry, Billy. I was really hoping for better news for you. :(

twondra said...

I found you through L&F at Stirrups. I'm thinking of you!!

Meg said...

I'm so sorry :(
I was really hoping that this was it for you.

Pepper said...

So very sorry Billy.

JamieD said...

I am so sorry . . . thinking of you . . .